Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Thoughts On Forty~Four

It's hard for me to fathom that I am just about middle aged. Where did the years go? Life for me has been quite the roller coaster ride..Some moments were thrilling, some seasons were hard, many days seemed mundane. I have had good times, bad times, happy and sad times just like everyone does. I spent many years with illness that no one could pinpoint and missed a lot of my children's days because I couldn't function 100%. After years of tests and confusion I finally got better after going to a naturalistic doctor. I have been blessed beyond imagination to be home with my children, homeschooling them and nurturing them with our support, attention and love. Our life has been built on faith in God as we have been given so much grace. As the years have gone on I have had some other strange health issues and anxiety...But in the recent months 
I am happy to say this is the best I have felt in years!!!

Yes, with age my eyes are failing, my body physically hurts, aches with a bit of arthritis in my toes and my hair is getting some grays... But I don't feel older. Mentally I feel like I'm in my twenties. With life experience I feel I have gained quite a bit of wisdom from trials and crossroads, even from good times. I have experienced more than most people in my little life, and has only made me a stronger person spiritually and has made me the person I am today. 
These things I consider gifts from my God. Gifts I am grateful to have.

My forties have been a great adventure so far... I am content knowing I am getting older. I pray I will grow old gracefully. Being more mindful of my health, and well being...Taking care and being a good steward of my life. I look forward to growing old alongside my dear husband and watch my children grow into delightful adults as they will someday have their own families. I am looking forward to the new season ahead and soaking it all in. Life is beautiful even though I am beautifully broken...I trust God as He continues molding and shaping me into the wife, mother and child of God He meant me to be. And may I glorify Him with how I live this gift.

Today I turned 44...I feel blessed that God has allowed me to live this long. Prayerfully it is His will to give me many more years here with my family, I praise Him for giving me this beautiful life.
(P.S. The frock is my newest sewing project...
made from an old vintage quilt top and old sugar sack used as one of the pockets)
 I love it...
More frocks to come soon!

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